Update

This whole adoption I have had such peace. Anyone who has gone through an adoption or is going through one now you know how stressful the process can be. So I welcomed the peace. 

I travel in 8 days. 8 days. In 10 days I will see my children for the first time. I can't even fathom what that will be like. I'm excited, nervous and terrified all at once. 

We recently got an update on both boys medical and it looks like Judah has some severe problems. The main problems that concern me are the kidney issues. I had some nurse friends look over the medical and they gave me their thoughts. I googled and pulled info from everywhere. After a few days I was scared. Paul and I were talking about the needs Judah has. Had he been born our son we would not have chosen to give him up because of his needs. He is the child God had for us since before he was formed in his mother's womb. 

Both of us talked about our fears and it brought to mind Noah's adoption. I said to Paul, "remember when they told us if Noah lived at all he would be a vegetable ? What was going through our minds? I can't remember. We're we like ok let's jump right on that! What were we thinking?" Lol. Well if you know me or have followed either of my blogs you know the testimony Noah has and is to our family. He is the absolute joy of my life and I would go through it all again in a heartbeat. Why? Because he is our son. That is how we feel about Judah. God showed him and Misha to be our children, just like Noah and just like Micah. Noah was terminal. Micah was deemed a feral animal child. They are home and thriving. 

I can only imagine to the outside world especially non Christ filled, Spirit led people we look crazy! In fact I don't have to imagine it, I hear it from others quite often. At the grocery store with all of my children in tow while I am shopping for dinner. In any given parking lot when people look at the back of my car and see all the flip flop stickers. Haha I will never forget one woman looked at them and at me walked 3 cars past me turned around walked back to me at my car and ask if that's how many kids I had. Now mind you this was before we had the stickers for Misha and Judah on there. I said yes. She said "that's crazy!"( original thought lady) then she went on to tell me that I needed to be checked into a psych ward because that was really crazy, like seriously crazy. Ok, thanks for that! I have lost friends over adopting, especially special needs children. I have had other people (self proclaimed Christians and non) tell me that it may be a lot of work, it may cost a lot, my life as I know it will be over, what if my husband loses his job, what if we can't get them on insurance, what if the have to go to the hospital all the time. 

What I came to realize is that people put a whole lotta hope in themselves or their job or their doctors or insurance. When I answered the what ifs with "God will provide" they looked at me like I was naive or clueless. Our hope is in God and we feel like this is what God called us to do. He called us so He will equip us.

So back to last night. I was afraid. So I opened the Bible. The daily verse was: “But blessed is the one who trusts in the Lord , whose confidence is in him. They will be like a tree planted by the water that sends out its roots by the stream. It does not fear when heat comes; its leaves are always green. It has no worries in a year of drought and never fails to bear fruit.” Jeremiah 7 and 8. 

Due to Judah's medical issues we are going to try to get the boys adoption expedited. When I get home I need to send paperwork off immediately. That paperwork is going to cost money. We need 720. For the rest of the USCIS. We will need updated medical and police clearances. Our final payment for our agency fees of 4000. is due when I get back. Then we will need airfare for the boys and myself and trinity. We will need hotel fees and food. So this means we need to get some more money coming in. 

We still have bracelets we are selling.  https://www.wepay.com/stores/wristbands

The amazon ad at the top of this blog is a link and you can click on it and anything you buy we get a percentage of. 

We are having a virtual spaghetti dinner where no one has to actually come because your 5.00 donation gets a plate of spaghetti given to the homeless in our area. If we get 300 dinners then we will get the dinners paid for by a donor and get to keep all the money for the adoption. Yay! Currently we are at 

31 meals sold.   https://www.wepay.com/stores/virtual-spaghetti-dinner

We have a link on Reece's rainbow. You can donate there and it is tax deductible.  http://reecesrainbow.org/36043/sponsorbeck

If you don't want anything and just want to donate then you can do that too:  https://www.wepay.com/donations/EE-adoption

We need around 9,000. ASAP. To go get them and be fully funded. God can do it! Will you help be His hands and feet and help us bring our boys home?

Be blessed