Toothaches

I have a problem. For as long as I can remember I have had horrible teeth. I don't really recall even being to the dentist while growing up. We never really went to the doctor so I am sure we didnt do the dentist. That money or time was better spent at a bar somewhere.  So as an adult I am paying for it.

We went a long time without insurance and even when we had insurance I didnt really go to the dentist because nothing hurt so why go? Right? Then I started having the worlds worst toothaches. Man did they hurt. I would go to the dentist get an Rx and if we had insurance I would get it fixed if not I would make due. At one point I had to have all my wisdom teeth pulled plus two more. One was in the front. They gave me a flipper. I was told to only wear it during the day and take it out at night. Well, after a while it became loose. When I ate it would often fall out and get caught up in the food I was chewing so I would have to spit everything out and clean off the flipper and try again.

Then there was this one dentist. I went to her and had several broken teeth. She told me I had to have them removed there was no way to fix them. I told her I didnt want them taken out with out putting something in. She took out my flipper and noticed that the entire area that the flipper covered looked like raw meat and was all infected. I couldnt wear it anymore. I was devastated. She told me if I let her pull the teeth then I could come back and get the partial. So we did it. 2 more teeth gone. I think the count is now up to what 7 or 8 teeth missing at this point.

It was horrible. I hated feeling that way and having a bloody gauze filled mouth, which as it happens I have a phobia of. Yep. Fear of cotton balls or gauze. Oh gag. I cant even write about it. It is an absolute irrational fear I know this, yet somehow my body does not.

Well it was finally time to go back. I did. She then tells me that she wouldnt feel right giving me the flipper (that I was paying for) until after about 4000.00 more dollars worth the work. I left there in tears.

When my infection healed from the flipper I tried to put it back in but it didnt fit at all. My mouth must have shifted. So for the past 3 years I have not smiled with my mouth open. Every single time I smile I am self conscience. Ont time early on I did smile and someone said "Oh wow what happened to your teeth?" Well that sealed the deal.

No matter what I am going through, adoption of a child, daughters achievements, vow renewal  you name it I do not smile and I am painfully aware the whole time and conscientiously remembering not to open my mouth. It sucks but it could be worse.

Lately I have had yet another infection. This time it went to my lymph nodes. The one in my throat and under my tongue. It hurts every time I move my tongue. I went to the dentist got the rx and felt better. Then as soon as I was done with the antibiotic the pain was back. Before when this happened it would be at least a few months or more before the pain came back. Usually I could go a year.

As I write this I am having the worst pain. It feels like I could pass out from the pain. I dont know what to do but I know who holds my future. He tells me to not be afraid he will take care of me. I am not going to worry about this. I dont have 12000.00 to fox my teeth. (That was the estimate from the dr.) 1155.00 was the root canal and our insurance pays 0! Well cant do that either.

If you would please pray for God's provision in this matter. Its hard to enjoy anything right now because of all the pain and I just want to smile again..with my whole mouth.

Be blessed

Heading to Austin

Thats right! Our Dossier is headed to Austin to be appostilled and then will go straight to they boys country. Finally! It feels good to be done with that, but I feel like it is missing something. Please pray that everything is there and right and it is smooth sailing.

So the estimate is around 8 weeks from the time the dossier is translated to travel. That is a ballpark it could be much longer. Lets pray for 8 weeks or less.

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Orphans, Widows and Fatherless

Recently I have had the opportunity to make and deliver food to the local homeless people. My kids really enjoyed this as well as my husband and myself. We talked with these people and although we were there to minister to them I felt like I was the one being ministered too.

So I had always planned to give the leftovers from the spaghetti dinner to the homeless. The problem is  each week there are more and more homeless and what if we dont have enough to feed all of them? They really like hot meals. So the Holy Spirit gave me an idea.

Homeless Meal

Can't make it to the spaghetti dinner but still want to support us in our adoption? Buy a homeless meal ticket and you meal will be taken to downtown Fort Worth after the dinner and given to a homeless person so they can have a hot meal for that evening.

Click here to donate:

https://www.wepay.com/events/beck-spaghetti-dinner?utm_campaign=tickets&utm_medium=link&utm_source=facebook&ref_uid=878188

"The King will reply, 'I tell you the truth, whatever you did for one of the least of these brothers of mine, you did for me.' Matthew 25:40

Be blessed

Spaghetti Dinner Fundraiser!!!

We have a date for our next fundraiser:

                        6:30pm CDT Oct 26th, 2012

It will be at Harvest Church 7200 Denton Highway

Watauga, TX 76148

https://www.wepay.com/events/beck-spaghetti-dinner?utm_campaign=tickets&utm_medium=link&utm_source=facebook&ref_uid=878188

It will be such an awesome time. I hope that y'all will come out and we can meet face to face. If you can't make it please consider donating a meal to someone who cant pay, praying for the event and/or spreading the word.

Be blessed

Down Syndrome Awareness Month!!!

Welcome to October. It has to be my absolute favorite month. You have fall colors, fall food, halloween, my daughter's birthday, the Buddy Walk, pumpkins, caramel apples, hayrides, and DOWN SYNDROME AWARENESS!!!!

That is a lot packed into a little month.

So will I be blogging everyday....probably not. Doesn't mean I don't care, I just don't have the time.

What can I tell you on this first day of DS awareness??? Hmm... Well let's talk about first.

First person speech that is.

Now I have to be honest here. I have only been a mom to a child with down syndrome for about 7 weeks or so. I am still learning. We can learn together.

What I have noticed from the community is that parents with children with down syndrome appreciate first person speech. Instead of saying "I saw a downs child or down syndrome child" They would rather you put the person first for example, "I saw a child with down syndrome in the store today." Please try to refrain from talking about a person with down syndrome by calling them downs kids or DS kids or downy.

I have also learned that if you are sincere then whether or not you use the proper words parents are usually kind to you. They are generally eager to talk about their awesome kids and teach people about DS. Please dont be afraid to ask questions or tell us how gorgeous our kids are. I know I am an open book and would love another adult to talk to during the day. Just be nice, because I can turn from sweet lil southern bell to MAMA BEAR in a second when you attack my children. I think we are all like that though.

Anyways, try to use first person speech from here on out. It's ok if you didn't know before so you did it but now you know.

Be blessed

Auction and Updates

We have an auction going on on Facebook for our adoption. It is a small auction at first and then we hope to have another one later. We are also going to be having a spaghetti dinner in October we are just waiting on a confirmation date and then will put the details on here.

In other news Micah said his first sentence today. I want coodie. aka cookie. This is amazing!! He usually just points. Today he did try to point first and I said what? He then pointed again and I said what do you say? He the say "I want coodie." Micah was very motivated since it was food, lol.

Noah also is talking and signing more and more. We are so proud of both boys.

AJ and Micah continue to be best of friends. School seems to be a problem for Micah right now. I told the school before he started that he needed to be in Kindergarten. They told me no. They said I was wasting one of his years of being in school and it didnt matter anyway because of the IEP.  Well after a month of school his teacher called and said I was right, he needed moved from 1st grade into Kindergarten.

So Monday he was moved and all week he had very bad behavior issues. His schedule and routine changed and he freaked out. Gee I wonder why? You take a child from the only home he has ever known and throw him in with a family of 7 in a new city with new rules and new foods and then 2 weeks later you throw him into a new school with new teachers. He had safety in his routine. He knew when he would eat and where everyday. Now it has all changed at school. Friday he brought home a picture he drew and it said Micah was ask what he was going to do. He said at home lay down, LOL. My boy has been tired. He slept in this morning as football was canceled and he also took a really long nap too.

Tuesday is my first ARD. I really hope it goes well. I wish my husband was going. Well I had better get to bed its after 1am here.

Be sure to check out our auction on FB. Message me for the link if you need to.

Be blessed

24 hours

On facebook we have a contest going on. If you donate to our adoption in the next 24 hours you will be entered to win a free  signed copy of the book Lost the Plot. Any donation 1.00 or 12,000 :)
Donate at the link below. Hoping to mail the dossier to Austin for apostilling tomorrow.

https://www.wepay.com/donations/76745

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